The Canadian woman who intentionally went blind because she loves being disabled


Jewel has Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), a condition in
which able-bodied people believe they are meant to be disabled.
Her need to lose her sight was so strong that in 2006 she decided to
blind herself – by having a sympathetic psychologist pour DRAIN CLEANER
into her eyes.
According to Jewel, her fascination with blindness began
early in childhood.
She said:

“When I was young my mother would find me walking in the halls at night,
when I was three or four years old.By the time I was six I remember
that thinking about being blind made me feel comfortable.”

As a child she would spend hours staring at the sun, watching
sunspots and solar storms, after her mother told her it would damage her
eyes.In her teens she started wearing thick black sunglasses,
getting her first white cane aged 18 and becoming fully fluent in
braille by the age of 20.
Jewel said:

“I was ‘blind-simming’,
which is pretending to be blind, but the idea kept coming up in my head
and by the time I was 21 it was a non-stop alarm
that was going off.”

to make her dream a reality, Jewel found a psychologist willing to help
her become blind – an act which she compares to a deaf person wanting
to get a cochlear implant.
The psychologist put in numbing
eyedrops – acquired by Jewel during a special visit to Canada – and then
a couple of drops of drain cleaner in each eye.
Jewel said:

“It hurt, let me tell you. My eyes were screaming and I had some drain cleaner going down my cheek burning my skin.
“But all I could think was ‘I am going blind, it is going to be okay.”

Despite the hospital’s attempts to save her vision – against her
wishes – they were permanently damaged, although it took around half a
year for the damage to take affect.
Jewel, 30, from North
Carolina, said:

“When I woke up the following day I was joyful, until I
turned on to my back and opened my eyes – I was so enraged when I saw
the TV screen.”

But over around six months the sight in both her
eyes slowly went away. Her left eye suffered a ‘corneal meltdown’ –
collapsing in on itself and requiring the eye to be removed – while her
right eye had glaucoma and cataracts, as well as a webbing of scars.
originally told her family it had been an accident, but they eventually
found out the truth – causing both her mother and sister to cut
However, she has been supported by her former fiancé
Mike, 50, who is registered legally blind – although in his case due to
naturally occurring early-onset macular degeneration.

The only thing I would want to see again is my dad’s face, although sadly that’s not possible as he’s no longer with us.
“I really feel this is the way I was supposed to be born, that I should have been blind from birth.
there’s nobody around you who feels the same way, you start to think
that you’re crazy. But I don’t think I’m crazy, I just have a disorder.”

UK Mirror


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